December 2009
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It's New Years Eve! Eeeep! >.<
So finally, a new year and a new decade is here! I’ve said my sorrys to people, said pretty much everything I needed to say, my closest is a bit cleaner! I’m far from okay, I’m not a new person, I’m not fixed and I can’t forget about everything I have done/everything that has hurt me.
But I’m always becoming a stronger person, and I’ve learnt a lot from...
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“I accidentally found a place in my heart that hurts, but I don’t want to...”
Die. A painful death.
Why does it have to hurt so much.Why!?
Why won’t it leave me alone?
Why do I have to feel like this?
Where did it come from?
Why can’t I just forget?
most importantly….WHY ME!?!?!?!?!
oh fuck off. So many unanswered questions.
fuck.my.life.
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1. Your ‘ex’ and you: don’t talk anymore 2. I am listening to: my brother and sister playing nazi zombies 3. Maybe I should: go to town and buy mw2
4. I love: my xbox
5. My best friends: are pure amazing! 6. I don’t understand: why!?!?!? 7. I lost my respect for: him. 8. I last ate: chocolate! 9. The meaning of my display name is:MOOCOWMOOCOW 10. Someday: I will find someone worth being...
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The lessons learnt.
So for me 2009 was all about learning and making mistakes, of course every year is…but this year more so I think!
Heres some of the things I learnt this year:
Money is not unlimited.
Xbox live is good.
Just because he was my best friend, does not mean he will be after we break up :(
Don’t drink a bottle of vodka with an ex.
Don’t EVER let a guy think you like him or there...
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I don't have a boyfriend, I have an Xbox...
…AND IT’S AWESOME!
So, in one of my previous blog entries I said I was going to play more xbox next year, it’s a weird new year resolution I know. But I think it’s a sweeeet idea! I’m about to become a social recluse aha =p
This all sounds REALLY sad haha, but what I’m trying to say is, I’m taking back my interests I had before I turned 14 and it all...
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Sick & Tired
You are a nightmare! I don’t want to be dragged down with it anymore. You say you love me, yet you make me unhappy. Stop trying to get a reaction out of me all the time, I don’t know what you are trying to gain by being a big PAIN IN THE ASS! Our friendship, is beyond childish. You bring the worst out in me, I’m 20…you’re 20, why can’t we have a grown up...
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Hello New Years Resolutions...
So in a matter of days, it will be a brand new year! This makes me very happy :D
So, time to make some new years resolutions. I make them every year…and manage to stick to some of them! Last year, I said no more tattoos and piercings for the first 6 months of 2009…I’m afraid this failed.
Eat more-100 points to me!
Be more social…I think I was abit TOO social this year!...
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Christmas day...
Today has been pretty chill :)
Got up at nine and did prezzys with my family, went to see my dad, then back to my mums for bacon buttys! Then all day been chilling, playing xbox, eating and drinking. MINT! Watching my brother play call of duty waw at the moment, I suck at it. I’m gunna rape it tonight after I’ve had a sleep. Feel well knackered now!
Well gotta say, I got everything I...
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Baby loves to dance...
She won’t walk away, but she won’t look back.
Shes a mess, shes a mess, shes a mess, shes a mess.
Baby loves to dance in the dark, cause’ when he’s looking she falls apart.
Baby loves to dance, to dance in the dark.
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Just a few things...
10 things you want for Christmas:
one: My family <3 two: FOOD! Nom <3 three: Snow four: lots of strongbow five: Parkway drive ticket six: Tekken 6 for xbox seven: New digital camera eight: Chocolate nine: Cuddles with Oscar ten: Probably a conversation with Murray at some point :) 9 musicians/bands you love: one: Bring Me the Horizon two: Parkway Drive three: I killed the prom queen four:...
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Monster.
I asked my girlfriend if she’d seen you round before.
She mumbled something while we got down on the floor, “We might’ve fucked not really sure, don’t quite recall But something tells me that I’ve seen him”
I wanna Just Dance But he took me home instead Uh oh! There was a monster in my bed We french kissed on a subway train He tore my clothes right off He ate my heart and then...
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WTF.
I’m tired, I want to sleep, but my mind won’t let me. PLEASE MIND, STOP HAVING A CONVERSATION WITH YOURSELF. I really don’t appreciate it :(
Why is life so…stupid!? *sighs*
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Scorpio.
Scorpio Personality:
Beneath a controlled, cool exterior beats the heart of the deeply intense Scorpio. Passionate, penetrating, and determined, this sign will probe until they reach the truth. The Scorpio may not speak volumes or show emotions readily, yet rest assured there’s an enormous amount of activity happening beneath the surface. Excellent leaders, Scorpions are always aware. When...
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WatchA stupidly long video of some of the photos and videos taken this year. You get a medal if you watch it all :P It’s abit shit and the syncing is terrible, BUT heres to 2009.
It’s been an emotional, difficult and amazing year! Heres a video to everyone who made it what it was <3
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“Fall back. Take a look at me and you’ll see I’m for real. I feel...”
– Avril Lavigne
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Winter
Right at this moment, I don’t miss the city at all. Theres nothing better than being home at christmas time. My family, my big fat tabby cat, being able to cuddle my baby brother, warmth and decent food that doesn’t consist of cheesy chips! Bliss!
The snow has been immense! I love waking up and seeing snow outside, I don’t remember the last time it snowed like this just before...
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Back to life, back to reality.
“How can you prove whether at this moment we are sleeping, and all our thoughts are a dream; or whether we are awake, and talking to one another in the waking state? “
A shared thought. Reality…what do you think?
Murray:
To question what we are doing at any given moment is to question both reality and life. It is in this questioning that humans either find that they end up lost or...
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Brittany Murphy
Just wanted to dedicate a post to Brittany Murphy who died today :(
So young! Dying of a heart attack at 32…bad times :(
Will miss her! I will watch 8 mile and reminisce!
RIP Brittany <3
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“I kinda wish we had never done that, because you’ve been acting weird ever...”
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Oscar
Babysitting fun times! He kept banging on the keyboard, the little pest <3
“How many times do we forgive someone just because we don’t want to lose...”
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To heartbreak & Back. (a detalied account of my...
Well here is the blog entry to sum up my year. It has been a tough year, in fact the single hardest year of my life so far. So I’ll spill.
I saw the year 2009 in with my long term boyfriend, David. Unaware that in a matter of weeks, things were going to fall apart. Something happened to him before Christmas, something that changed him, maybe for the better, but something that changed us. Scrap...
Between You & I
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“You know you can’t give me what I need. And even though you mean so much...”
– A Day To Remember
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“‘I want to fucking rip my heart out and tell it to fucking sort itself...”
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Ghost of my teenage past. 2001-2009
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Things that make me tick...
Cuddles. Tattoos. Mosh pits. Honesty. Photographs. Nostalgia. Culture. Road trips. Family get togethers. Cider. Pokemon. Summer. Intimacy. Deep thinkers. Kissing. Best friends. Baby smiles and cuddles. Close friends. Monster. Quentin Tarantino. Connecting with someone. Being spontaneous. Being so excited/happy you think you might explode. Open fires. Bring Me The Horizon. Listening to Slipknot...
